Financial Musings
Mar. 8th, 2023 05:13 pmI don't know why I felt like doing the Vi quest this morning.
I've been working diligently on the outline for The Jewel-Strewn Night, my next WIP. Terry has been in an adult family care facility for a few weeks now; it's better than the hospital but it's not actually good. He's not up for gaming most nights, so I've been hanging out in CoffeeQuills's stream instead. They run multi-player battles and I fight in a three or so each night, usually writing fifteen hundred words or so on the outline. Even on week nights, which historically have been my time for slacking off. I always thought that was because I was too tired after work to do anything useful. I guess that Terry had always been there conveniently to keep me company and play games was also a major factor.
Today, I don't particularly want to play games alone, except for 4thewords.com, which -- as I have told myself many, many times, is not actually a game. It's just writing. But I can write whatever I want and it all counts the same, which is sort of a change of pace from my habitual editing and outlining and drafting stories. The "Vi quest" is a daily quest to defeat five Vi, which amounts to "write for 25 minutes total without any significant pauses." I normally dislike the endurance monsters, but I should probably give them more of a chance.
Anyway, I have today off since it's a Wednesday. I normally only work Monday, Tuesday and Friday, since I'm part-time. I have been waffling about dropping to Even Fewer hours -- there's a "seasonal" status that I'd drop to if I worked less than 20 hours a week. Seasonal workers get zero benefits: as part-time, I can't get health insurance through my employer, but I do get a 5% match on my 401(k), and there's an annual bonus that adds up to around 10% of my annual salary. And I get a lot of PTO, like five weeks a year. Since my weeks are 20 hours each, that's only 100 hours, but even so. It's time I get paid for not working.
I have a lot of money in retirement savings. It'd be enough to cover my general current expenses for the rest of my life. I have a friend whom I've long discussed retirement and planning for retirement with, and one of his thoughts has always been "I want to save extra money so that I can afford cool new tech that comes out after I retire", kind of the way that fiber internet and smartphones didn’t exist thirty years ago but have become a ubiquitous expense in my life.
I am not super worried that there will be cool new technology that I can't afford. I'm more concerned that I will become disabled in some fashion that will be much more bearable if I have lots of money to compensate for it. My parents, who are thankfully wealthy, are increasingly dependent on services: they have their groceries not only delivered, but the delivery person puts them away. They have a housekeeper because neither of my parents are healthy enough to do regular household chores. My father just got a home health aide to help with some additional issues. My mother will probably need a home health aide in the next year or so too, for one reason or another. They can afford all of this: my father made excellent money before he retired, which he invested well, and he worked for a company that provided a good pension plan. But my retirement savings -- perfectly adequate to my present needs -- will not be enough to provide me with full-time home care in thirty years. It probably wouldn't even be enough to pay for a nursing home.
So I will keep puttering along at twenty hours a week for some years to come, I suppose. It's disheartening how difficult it is to anticipate future expenses when looking at retirement. Maybe I'll get hit by a bus and none of it will matter, and maybe I'll live the last thirty years of my life requiring full-time care, who knows? But the thing is that you can literally have millions of dollars* in savings and still end up having your life depend on needing more money than you have. This is somewhat more likely in America, with our healthcare payment system that is such a disaster it doesn't even work well for the top 5%. But you can be living anywhere and know that there's a treatment available that could save you, or substantially improve your life, but that your healthcare system won't pay for, for whatever reason. Having the government pay for healthcare changes who can deny it to you, but it doesn't guarantee that you won't be denied. Everything has a cost, and someone will always have to decide when the cost is too much. Leftists like to blame it on capitalism, but the systemic issue is "the laws of physics." Healthcare is not an artificial scarcity. Maybe someday we'll figure out how to get around entropy but that day has not yet come.
*to be clear, I do not have this much