Good mood

[rowyn]

I'm cheerful today. I don't know exactly what's got me in a good mood, but everything just seems right today. I set to this morning as soon as I got in, and I've wrapped up my usual daily work already, which leaves me the remainder of the afternoon to wrestle with thornier problems. But I'm not worried or intimidated by them today.

No, it's Friday, I got some writing on Prophecy done last night, and I'll get some more done this weekend, and all will be well with the world.

I've been re-reading bits from Silver Scales. I was about to write "to psyche myself up to write more" but that's not true. I've been re-reading them because I enjoy them so much. Of all the thousands of pages of stuff -- fiction, non-fiction, journals, RP, novels, short stories, you name it -- I've ever written, I think I like Scales the most. Maybe it's not the "best" thing I've written, on literary grounds or whatever, but I enjoy it. Maybe part of the reason that I'm reluctant to write more is that I don't want to see that promise fall short. I'm afraid that the future bits just won't be as good -- as funny, as entertaining -- as what's already gone.

But that's OK, too. I may go ahead and write something more -- today, or this weekend. Time will tell if it's up to snuff or not. :)

Comments

[rowyn]

Y'know ... I'm not so sure. That makes sense and all, but "happiness", like "depression" and "anger" and "elation" is an emotion ... and doesn't necessarily make sense. I would like to be happy whenever I don't have a reason to be upset. I'd like to only be upset whenever I have a reason to be upset.

But my emotions aren't that rational. I can go from being somewhat depressed to entirely content, with no significant changes in my environment. It's not as though "nothing's wrong, ergo, I am happy." My life is not problem-free, and some of the problems I have today would be plenty enough "reason" for me to be upset or irritated, on some other day. But today, as it happens, they don't bother me. To which I say:

Hurray! :)

[gen.livejournal.com]

Well, one doesn't feel elated when one is stumbling around in the morning trying to find socks or what have you, but one would hope that the prevelant emotion in a person's life is quiet contentment.

True, to be 100% happy all the time you probably have to be one something, but one would hope that if all is well, you've got a general underlying contentment with things.

Leastwise, I'd like to think that's the general rule. It's how the past few weeks have been for me :)

[rowyn]

My own default state seems to waver around from month to month, or year to year. I'll go through periods where my default is "generally happy/upbeat", and others where the default is just "neutral/mostly content", and others where the default is "depressed".

That default state doesn't necessarily correlate with how well I perceive events in my life to be going. I'd like to just throw a switch and make "generally happy/upbeat" be my default setting for the rest of my life, but my psyche doesn't appear to work that way. :)