Car, Cancer, General Stuff Update

[rowyn]

I've been a car owner for 15 days now. My car's name is Ardent Purr the Adoracar, because decision is for other areas of my life. As of the 14 day mark, I'd driven her about 500 miles. This seems like a ridiculously high number. I checked and it's below average for an American driver. Americans are crazy about driving.

Lut was supposed to be moved to a rehab facility today, but I just called the hospital and he hasn't been moved yet. Given that it's 4:30 now, I don't think it's happening now. Assuming it happens eventually, my miles-per-day will go down, because the new facility is a little closer. It's about the same time to get to, though, because it's all street driving instead of a highway option. If he does well in rehab and can come home, my average driving will go down a lot more. Please pray for us, things are not looking great. v_v

I am tired all the time now, even when I get a full eight hours of sleep. People keep saying "don't forget to take care of yourself" and I wish I could. I'm eating as much and as well as I did before Lut went to the hospital. The main thing I gave up was exercise. I do not have time to commute 90 minutes a day and work full time and see Lut for a few hours each day and still exercise.

I am still editing. I've hacked about 12,000 words out of the manuscript now. I am startled by how much of that is just "saying the same basic thing more concisely". I still need to add a few things, but I'm just changing stuff as I get to it at this point.

I've written a little fiction, but only a little. I miss the #PollRPG -- I was thinking about it when I did the first title poll this week -- but I am not sure what to do with that. Writing a story where people shape the results as I go means I can't build a buffer or plan out the story that much, and "write when I feel like it" doesn't work that well if I want an audience to follow it at the same pace. Editing and writing at my own pace works okay with the cancer lifestyle. Not so much on a schedule. :| Maybe I will do a poll about it at some point.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Is there a form of exercise you could do in the hospital without too much disruption? Perhaps something isometric?

Telnar

[rowyn]

There is probably a form of exercise that I would be technically capable of doing, but I can't think of anything that I would be willing to do.

[archangelbeth]

*hugs* I would ditch exercise as well. (Honestly, seeing what has been wrought in my writing ability from being Emotional Support, I would probably not be able to write. Which I mean supportively, but not very coherently.)

[rowyn]

If writing were my focus now, I'm not sure how much I'd be doing. :| Chopping out words is tedious but low-brain.

[archangelbeth]

yay for tedious, low-brain progress, then. as much as yay can be with the situation.

[tuftears]

*hugs* Yay for Ardent Purr! Hope Lut recovers quickly and well.

Don't fret too much about the writing, with this much stress and inability to do stuff about it, you don't need to hit yourself with the 'should do X' hammer too, IMO. Relax!

[rowyn]

I am not pushing myself very hard, no. But Lut is going to have cancer for the rest of his life, and giving up on making stuff until he's dead is even more bleak than figuring out how to keep going. :|

Oh. Huh.

[(Anonymous)]

I'd not thought about it like that, but it is true. When you're feeling up to it, we could help with brainstorming solutions if you'd like.
- Kunama

[rowyn]

Thanks, Mike. hugs

[catofalltrades]

*hugs* and love for you and Lut.

[rowyn]

purrs hugs ty

[eimarra]

All the hugs. No solutions, no ideas, just a shoulder if you need it.

[canis_lupus03]

More hugs. And good thoughts. Also, Ardent Purr the Adoracar is a great name.

[alltoseek]

That's cute name for your car. Reminds me of Adora Belle Dearheart. Mebbe when Ardent Purr the Adoracar is too much of a mouthful, you could just say Spike. Or Spoke, maybe *g*

Our vehicles are creatively named 'the truck', 'the van', and 'the car', or sometimes 'the Leaf' (it is a Nissan Leaf).