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rowynOne of the worst parts of the war for me is feeling like I ought to be thinking about it. Doing something. Having an educated opinion, at least. But I don't. And there's precious little I can do about it anyway, so what does it matter if I personally care or not?
I don't want to write about the war.
Right now, I'm not sure I want to write about anything.
But when I opened this browser window, I intended to take a moment to thank those who offered advice on my very personal quandary. (Thanks, wuf, Bard, Tufty. :) And to say I've made a decision.
For now, I plan to keep working on Prophecy through April. My goal will be to write my usual monthly 9500 words. This means I'll most likely fall short of my original year-long goal by around 10-15,000 words. That's OK.
Sometime in May, I'll re-evaluate the Master Plan and see where I stand on the whole book.
A big part of my decision-making process was realizing that, fundamentally, I don't trust myself, and I have good reason not to trust myself. Deep down, I don't believe that Scales will be really any easier to finish than Prophecy. Even in the last few days, my pace of writing has slowed noticeably. (Why, I didn't post anything Thursday night OR last night! Well, I did post something on Friday morning, but still.)
A part of me feels that I've lost my way with UnfinishedTales already. I was supposed to be writing this for me. If that's the case, why am I holding back on posting pieces until they're "done"? The point was not to care. But I do care. Instant gratification. I don't know where I'm going with this. I'll stop now.
Anyway, I'll follow the Master Plan and finish Prophecy, probably this year. If I keep working on Scales, too: Bonus! :)
I don't want to write about the war.
Right now, I'm not sure I want to write about anything.
But when I opened this browser window, I intended to take a moment to thank those who offered advice on my very personal quandary. (Thanks, wuf, Bard, Tufty. :) And to say I've made a decision.
For now, I plan to keep working on Prophecy through April. My goal will be to write my usual monthly 9500 words. This means I'll most likely fall short of my original year-long goal by around 10-15,000 words. That's OK.
Sometime in May, I'll re-evaluate the Master Plan and see where I stand on the whole book.
A big part of my decision-making process was realizing that, fundamentally, I don't trust myself, and I have good reason not to trust myself. Deep down, I don't believe that Scales will be really any easier to finish than Prophecy. Even in the last few days, my pace of writing has slowed noticeably. (Why, I didn't post anything Thursday night OR last night! Well, I did post something on Friday morning, but still.)
A part of me feels that I've lost my way with UnfinishedTales already. I was supposed to be writing this for me. If that's the case, why am I holding back on posting pieces until they're "done"? The point was not to care. But I do care. Instant gratification. I don't know where I'm going with this. I'll stop now.
Anyway, I'll follow the Master Plan and finish Prophecy, probably this year. If I keep working on Scales, too: Bonus! :)
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Date: 2003-03-29 10:11 am (UTC)