All Too Human
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rowynAs another entry in the “strange misgivings” category (this is along the same lines as wondering if I picked the wrong name), I’d like to file my persistent self-identification as … well. Human.
Actually, it’s not that I’m all that stubborn about being human. When I played on FurryMUCK, my characters ran a gamut of largely-cute animal species: feline, mink, one non-anthro unicorn, a unicorn-feline-taur cross (my then-SO’s idea to produce offspring between two of our characters), caribou, dragon, and probably some others that escape me now. My sole PC on Sinai is a morphic mouse. My one remaining Furry character, Rowan, remains the most “personal” furry I’ve created, and she’s not human, either – she’s a shuggoth.
But I’ve played Rowan as a malleable-form creature, and she mostly pours herself into a “human-looking” mold of one sort or another.
When I was younger, I had a strong feline association. My first computer-handle (on the University’s local VAX and boards) was “Cat.” But something -- the exceedingly large number of felines in the furry community, maybe -- turned me off from continuing along those lines.
And now I find myself unable to pick a “look” and stick to it. I’d rather like to make a series of user icons depicting a single entity – but what kind? Humans are so dull. But I don’t think of myself as anything else. Not especially. I’m as much cat as dragon or unicorn or caribou. Or human.
So should I stick with the self-portrait theme I have now? That’s as much me as anything else, and it’s consistent. I don’t want to hare off with ten different pictures of ten different things, reflecting all the splinter forms of Rowan-as-shuggoth. Or all my different personas, either.
Not that this issue is really worth the space I’m taking to write it up. Well, I’ll do what I will do, and that’s that. And other redundancies, too.
Actually, it’s not that I’m all that stubborn about being human. When I played on FurryMUCK, my characters ran a gamut of largely-cute animal species: feline, mink, one non-anthro unicorn, a unicorn-feline-taur cross (my then-SO’s idea to produce offspring between two of our characters), caribou, dragon, and probably some others that escape me now. My sole PC on Sinai is a morphic mouse. My one remaining Furry character, Rowan, remains the most “personal” furry I’ve created, and she’s not human, either – she’s a shuggoth.
But I’ve played Rowan as a malleable-form creature, and she mostly pours herself into a “human-looking” mold of one sort or another.
When I was younger, I had a strong feline association. My first computer-handle (on the University’s local VAX and boards) was “Cat.” But something -- the exceedingly large number of felines in the furry community, maybe -- turned me off from continuing along those lines.
And now I find myself unable to pick a “look” and stick to it. I’d rather like to make a series of user icons depicting a single entity – but what kind? Humans are so dull. But I don’t think of myself as anything else. Not especially. I’m as much cat as dragon or unicorn or caribou. Or human.
So should I stick with the self-portrait theme I have now? That’s as much me as anything else, and it’s consistent. I don’t want to hare off with ten different pictures of ten different things, reflecting all the splinter forms of Rowan-as-shuggoth. Or all my different personas, either.
Not that this issue is really worth the space I’m taking to write it up. Well, I’ll do what I will do, and that’s that. And other redundancies, too.
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Date: 2003-01-24 01:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Was gifted by my friends.
Were I to go aMuck,
I'd need to make aMends.
But "humans as so dull"?
My friend, it isn't so!
Just spice 'till flavorful
And down the hatch they go.
But BEING one, instead
Is also hardly dull.
We live in human forms,
Not feathers, scales or wool.
These forms have conquered space
And aren't finished yet!
The forward human pace
Is ours, don't forget.
It's all quite well and good
To play at wolf or cat.
But some, who really should,
Can't quite get past all that.
And all of our "pretend"
Takes some "us"-part away
You're more than that, my friend
On any given day.
The best to be is you
You're what makes you unique.
The art that you hold true--
The lofty goals you seek.
Make avatars of those!
And add yourself as well.
Your icons aren't prose.
They do not have to "sell".
They let us recognize
An old friend at a glance.
What face contains your eyes,
Your words will soon enhance.
(I would here recommend
To keep the number small
The "icons without end"...
It's hard to track them all.)
===|==============/ Level Head
no subject
Date: 2003-01-24 03:09 pm (UTC)Do not themselves lend
To the tiny space I've got
For usericons, my friend
But thank you for the notion
Not to mention for your time
Spent in composition
Of such a charming (and long!) rhyme!
Ancient EVIL
Re: Ancient EVIL
Date: 2003-01-24 06:02 pm (UTC)record, I always liked Rowan the Shoggoth a lot. :)
Aww, thanks. :) I have more pictures of me I could adapt to iconhood, but, I dunno. I don't have a very expressive face and I'm not wild about using my own picture as an icon, anyway. I think it'd be cleaner to use l'il sketches. Maybe I'll work on something this weekend.