I fail at sickness

[rowyn]

I'm home sick today, rather unsuccessfully. I've tried three time to take a nap in the hopes that sleep would make me feel better, but I haven't actually managed to fall asleep yet. I keep lying in bed thinking "I'm so tired, I wish I could sleep" and not sleeping. And getting up again after half an hour.

I'm not horribly sick, just coughing and aching and very tired. I keep thinking "Sheesh, if I wasn't going to be able to sleep anyway, I could've sat in front of my computer and done nothing at work instead." Home is a more comfortable place to do nothing, but I feel vaguely guilty about it. I'd've felt vaguely guilty for not getting anything done at work, too, though, so there's no real escaping it. Curse you, vague guilt!

The thing that bothers me most is the possibility that I'll be at this exact same state of "sick-but-not-so-sick-as-to-be-dysfunctional" tomorrow, and I don't wanna go to work feeling like this. I don't want to stay home feeling like this, either. I want to at least be sick enough for Nyquil and sleep, if I'm not gonna be healthy enough for work.

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[kagetsume.livejournal.com]

Also, you might want to pick up some unisom. It does help in getting over that edge and falling to sleep. It sucks being sick and I certainly understand that vague guilt bit, too.

-- Kagetsume