...Perhaps it is your powerful sense of "what should be" rumbling like an imprisoned, child devouring titan against the calm, practical, pragmatism of your everyday Athena-nature ? :)
ok, that was a convoluted and probably muddy extension of a metaphor :)
Seriously, it's a thorny question "when have I become too complacent, in the name of being reasonable, have I accidentally given up on something I shouldn't have?"....
well, I have no answer to that. Though I'll note that in my case, I am simply too messed up pscyhologically to even begin to fairly assess that question. I have had to simply go "whenever I ask myself that question, I have to say "no" ". Because even if I did fail to do something, I do not have the resources or perspective to accomplish anything "big". And if I did, it would just leave me feeling like a failure because I could never do it "hard enough" to make up for not having done it sooner. And it doesn't matter if it wasn't truly big, if my guilt has been invoked, it _is_ "big" NOW, anyway.
This isn't really an answer, and it's probably a heuristic that will lead me to violate my values at times. But on the other hand, it's more workable than the main alternative, which is to be tortured by my creative brain which can dissect and analyze a problem fairly objectively, yet have no CLUE of my relative ability to implement that solution; or to analyze and properly scenario-model the problem so that I end up with the right solution rather than first thing that seems overwhelmingly likely.
Now, I know you're not nearly as neurotic as me. But I think from what you've told me, you use a similar heuristic. And I'm just sayign "reinforce it if there's cracks in it. You want the VR Pill." (wry sympathetic smile)
Life hates us. We can still have fun regardless, and even still be good people regardless, even if we can't be epic level heroes.
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So what is the cage ?
Date: 2002-10-11 01:18 pm (UTC)ok, that was a convoluted and probably muddy extension of a metaphor :)
Seriously, it's a thorny question "when have I become too complacent, in the name of being reasonable, have I accidentally given up on something I shouldn't have?"....
well, I have no answer to that. Though I'll note that in my case, I am simply too messed up pscyhologically to even begin to fairly assess that question. I have had to simply go "whenever I ask myself that question, I have to say "no" ". Because even if I did fail to do something, I do not have the resources or perspective to accomplish anything "big". And if I did, it would just leave me feeling like a failure because I could never do it "hard enough" to make up for not having done it sooner. And it doesn't matter if it wasn't truly big, if my guilt has been invoked, it _is_ "big" NOW, anyway.
This isn't really an answer, and it's probably a heuristic that will lead me to violate my values at times. But on the other hand, it's more workable than the main alternative, which is to be tortured by my creative brain which can dissect and analyze a problem fairly objectively, yet have no CLUE of my relative ability to implement that solution; or to analyze and properly scenario-model the problem so that I end up with the right solution rather than first thing that seems overwhelmingly likely.
Now, I know you're not nearly as neurotic as me. But I think from what you've told me, you use a similar heuristic. And I'm just sayign "reinforce it if there's cracks in it. You want the VR Pill." (wry sympathetic smile)
Life hates us. We can still have fun regardless, and even still be good people regardless, even if we can't be epic level heroes.