if you believe in your gut and felt reassured by the spirit and reasoning of the foregoing comments, then ignore the following
Don't say you weren't warned
...you are what you started as.
If these feelings of unease about productivity or efficiency are bothering you, beyond the ability to solace or soothe....you should ask yourself a few questions
Was there ever a time you felt that what you were needed no apology, no justification, no conditions ?
When did it change ?
What happened during this change and what does it imply about these lingering feelings ? To paraphrase a pointed observation you made once...you don't seem to have escaped the haunting sense of obligation that made you miserable before learning about existentialism and adopting it as the core of your outlook.
Is it possible you metamorphosized it into something you could neither please nor address nor respond to ?
And perhaps most importantly....
What was different about you that made you start as nothing and require some labor to earn justification and emotional pride in who you are ? Other people don't seem to have these feelings very commonly. But they seem to be a haunting refrain within the walls of your spirit.
And whatever happened, is it something that can be undone ? Mitigated ? Or merely endured ?
from nothing you came and to nothing you return
Don't say you weren't warned
...you are what you started as.
If these feelings of unease about productivity or efficiency are bothering you, beyond the ability to solace or soothe....you should ask yourself a few questions
Was there ever a time you felt that what you were needed no apology, no justification, no conditions ?
When did it change ?
What happened during this change and what does it imply about these lingering feelings ? To paraphrase a pointed observation you made once...you don't seem to have escaped the haunting sense of obligation that made you miserable before learning about existentialism and adopting it as the core of your outlook.
Is it possible you metamorphosized it into something you could neither please nor address nor respond to ?
And perhaps most importantly....
What was different about you that made you start as nothing and require some labor to earn justification and emotional pride in who you are ? Other people don't seem to have these feelings very commonly. But they seem to be a haunting refrain within the walls of your spirit.
And whatever happened, is it something that can be undone ? Mitigated ? Or merely endured ?